It Matters

It Matters

It matters what I do today
I may not be alive tomorrow
and yet today
for a fistful of dollars
due tomorrow
I sold
a piece
of my
soul.

It's such a little thing
they said
waiting for agreement
it's only
for a little while longer
just
put up with it.

Just a little thing
yes
but it is wrong
and yet
I did it for money.

But you need the money
they said
hoping for agreement
that's
what matters
not the job.

I need the money
yes
but it is wrong
and yet
I bowed my head.

And it hurt
now
for today
and all tomorrows
I did it for money
and it hurt
someone else.

I didn't mean it
it was not
intentional
but I knew
it could happen.

Just a frog
she was
just a frog.

But she died
I saw her
such a little one
writhing in agony
desperate
to get away
desperate
to live
but she died.

I did it
for money.

Mother
forgive me.